With everyone writing their "secrets" on big posters for the Anonymous show I kinda felt like getting one off of my chest.
It's a shame that I'm the insecure, jealous type. I'm really scared of my friends replacing me or coming to find that they don't care about me in the same way that I care about them. I guess it just makes sense because it's happened before more than once. What if they find something better than me? I don't want to let myself feel like I'm special to anyone because I'll probably come to find out that I'm not. I don't want to be let down. I don't want to invest my emotions into someone just so that I can find out they feel the same way about me as they do with all their other friends. So I put up a lot of walls. And I don't want to be vulnerable. But I wish I weren't so paranoid and I wish I could be happy and relaxed with my friendships. I just need to stop being a wuss, fearlessly love people, and get my shit together, I guess. I have the loveliest friends in the world and I couldn't ask for better ones. They aren't the problem. It's all me.