Sunday, July 31, 2011

Quick thought

The people who we think are so cocky/full of themselves are probably the most insecure ones. So give 'em grace.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Trying to get this beauty.

Just as you would mourn a real life death...

I feel urged to mourn the death of spiritual life in people that I love. But there's always hope and I've learned over the past couple of weeks that there definitely is new life to come; especially if you are committed to making someone a part of your every day prayers. Growing up in a Christian school and church, most of the people I knew were Christian. So branching out this past year and hanging out with a lot of vcu kids has really been both shocking and refreshing. My once small world perceived that most people I would encounter held the same beliefs as me. And that is not the case at all. Especially going to shows, atheism is a big deal in the hardcore scene. They like their bitterness, upside-down crosses, and faith trash-talking. (can someone please tell them the upside-down cross is actually the sign for Peter the martyr?? They're unknowingly supporting religion ahaha). Anyways, it's really opened my eyes to a lot of things and I guess it's all part of graduating high school and getting out into the real world. It's also challenged my spiritual life because a lot of these people are kids I care about and call friends. You get to the point where you can see through their "F*** God" and realize they're just feeling pain. Which they have complete right to, because the church seems to cause A LOT of pain these days and people are slowly stepping away from church instead of migrating towards it. But like I said above, I have gotten to witness first hand how God can soften someone's heart and it's really easy...all you have to do is ask. I've spent most of my prayer life talking about myself and my needs and I've always known things shouldn't be about me but now it's real. I've also learned something about myself through this past year. I'm really not bold with my beliefs and I actually have a lot of timid feelings when it comes to being open about disagreement. It's easy to talk about God when you're with Christians (which I always was) but it seems to be a whole different story when you're around atheists/agnostics. I don't think I've ever been so afraid of judgement from peers. Even though I'm pretty bold in all other aspects of my life, I guess this is not something that comes natural to me for some reason and I definitely need to work on that. Anyways, this post was literally going to be one sentence but I guess I just sort of went with what I was feeling. Don't know if anyone can relate to this, but if so then that's awesome. Ok peace out blogspot :-*

Monday, July 25, 2011


Kelly and I were looking for something to do last night. I remembered earlier that day I saw on The Camel's page via facebook that there was a free show going on, so we went. Because it didn't cost money. Which is awesome. I recognized one of the names on the bill, Dave Watkins, this really sweet acoustic player who I saw at The Camel on my 16th birthday. The band headlining called "No BS" I had never heard of but I looked at their facebook page and they had a lot of likes from people that I was friends with. Sooo we went and unfortunately we had missed Dave by a couple of minutes. But we saw my friend Ian and also ran into Josh random. Anyways, No BS went and they were SO. GOOD. Their New Orleans feel and use of the megaphone to sing and hype people up had everyone in the room dancing around. Such a fun time! I didn't expect them to be that good but they are definitely different from any other band I have seen in Richmond before. Their song where they yell "RVA ALL DAY!" in between saxaphone and tuba riffs was awesome. If a band can make a whole room full of people dance, you know they're good. I wanted to go talk to the band members afterwards but they were no where in sight so Kelly and I started heading for 711. We were driving on Grace St. and I stopped to let someone cross the road and when I looked it was No BS's vocalist, Reggie (he was so suave) of course I rolled down the window and yelled in a dumb fan-girl voice "YOU GUYS WERE AWESOME!!" I will definitely be keeping up with them.
I'm scared of feeling like I'm special to someone because what if I'm not?

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Thursday, July 14, 2011


So, about a month or so ago, I watched something called "Paris, Je T'aime" (Paris, I love you) which is basically a compilation of short French films all put together on one dvd. There's something very special about short films when they're done right. You can learn so much about someone in around five minutes and finish the film with a significant amount of feeling. I think one of the short films from Paris Je T'aime entitled "Bastille" was my favorite and I wanted to post it.
Not only is this film beautiful, but there was something else subtly involved that drew me to it. "By acting like a man in love, he became a man in love again." You may or may not know that I LOVE geeking out over psychology and find every bit of it incredibly interesting{which is why I'm making it my major} and I had studied before about the positive correlation between acting affectionately and feelings of love. When you are acting, touching, or pretending to feel in any way that has to do with affection, it is likely that you will develop very real feelings that coincide with your actions. I've always thought that was fascinating. It really makes sense if you think about it, though. Ever notice how celebrities who play love interests in movies together often end up dating in real life? Anyways, that's my little input about this short film and I hope you like it.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Friday, July 8, 2011

trying to not scream. trying to not scream. trying to not scream. trying to not scream.

Monday, July 4, 2011

via Zooey Deschanel

Something I need to remember.

"If you want to get warm, you move near the fire. If you want joy, peace, eternal life, you must get close to what has them."

C.S. Lewis