Montreal 2011

It's progress.

faux tumor

I found this weird lump on my neck and jokingly told my parents that it was a tumor and that my head was going to fall off...but I really didn't know what it was. It's okay though. It isn't a tumor. My lymph node is swollen from an infection on my neck. Annoying. Not as annoying as a tumor would be though. I'm delirious but this is an hour earlier than I've been going to bed the past few nights. summer life. I need to get on a good sleep schedule, I was given hope last night about a job that I've been wanting. More details in a couple days or so. ok goodnight all.

Thought:

What percentage of the time do we genuinely believe what we're saying? Isn't it often that we make a false statement only to hear someone reassure us that the opposite is true...

Real life treehouses!

Dream home.
real life tree houses -- people actually live in these incredible structures and I am sooo jealous. Who knew an object of childhood could become a style of living for adults? There are several different kinds. Some I like more than others.

this ones very cozy :)

LOVE.

This one is awesome because they actually carved out the middle of the tree and built the house from within.

Ah! So pretty!

With these kinds...the houses are actually hanging from trees. That would be a little too scary for me to live in. eek.

I've sort of made it my mission to live in a tree house one day. It's such a cool concept and we have way more space in our houses than we need anyway if you think about it...

Lost at Sea

The mystery of salt and sea has never been intruiging.
And to me but the sea
green is set so beautifully against your thoughtful face
that I might close my eyes...and turn my face.
Still floating soft, I am dreaming.
And I'm glad I lost.
And still with my fingers, I'm drawing circles in the water.

And still, still you're always there.

-Eisley

Short tidbit about...

something that is sort of a big deal in my life. I've always been very self conscious and compared myself to other girls...a lot (a majority of that concerning my body). This week I was at the beach with my family and as I sat there I began to notice something. I was deeply analyzing every girl that walked by. Every...single...one. Comparing her to myself, thinking "ugh perfect body" or "she doesn't exactly have a perfect body, but I'd rather have her body than mine, etc. And I guess I've sort of always done this but became more aware of it this week. Yeah, comparing myself to other girls doesn't make me feel good about myself; so you wanna know the funny thing? Not once did I ever try to stop. Not once did I say "hey, I'm not going to do this anymore." Too simple right...well, I tried it. And it really helped. I stopped looking at other girls, and if I did look at them, my thoughts were always more along the lines of "oh, good for her" [no sarcasm...really, I promise]. Anyways it just makes me think that half the time we're stuck in something that makes us miserable, it's probably ourselves that are doing it and if we don't take action we can't expect to feel okay. I'm not saying I have a huge boost of confidence now, or that I don't ever wish I was different, but standing up and saying I'm not going to attack myself anymore has been a healthy experience. I've always seen those "peace body pledge" things you see in 17 magazine and the like -- only to think
pffft, like that changes anything. 
But I guess little steps like this are what get you on your way towards something bigger. So far so good.

Okay that wasn't as short as I expected. Peace!

"For the first two or three years after my conversion, I used to ask for specific things. Now I ask for God. Supposing there is a tree full of fruits -- you will have to go and buy or beg the fruits from the owner of the tree. Everyday you would have to go for one or two fruits. But if you can make the tree your own property,  then all the fruits will be your own. In the same way, if God is your own, then all things in Heaven and on earth will be your own, because He is your Father and is everything to you; otherwise you will have to go and ask like a beggar for certain things. When they are used up, you will have to ask again. So ask not for gifts, but for the Giver of Gifts; not for life, but for the Give of Life -- then life and the things needed for life will be added unto you."

-Sundar Singh

lazy beach chillin 2010

Where you'll find me now.

To tear out your heart would send all your secrets to me.

All I could want is silver and spinning

out from your arms and into the pretty

pit of your heart, so simply and softly we'd flow.

neutral milk hotel.

I have seen you in the sanctuary 

 

and beheld your power and your glory.

:::

Because your love is better than life...

|my lips will glorify you.|

Hm.

It seems as though all my desires are things which I know I'm not ready for. It's a fact that is very frustrating to face. Maybe instead of feeling so stagnant I should count my blessings and enjoy where I am for this moment because nobody knows if we'll even see tomorrow. I'm currently listening to "Let it Be" from the Across the Universe soundtrack and it's making me happy, even though the scene in the movie is terribly sad.
I think this scene is beautiful and especially love that they didn't record these songs in a studio then edit it into the movie. This is them...really singing. Right there. Talent talent talent. I wish I sung like Evan Rachel Wood!

Woahh cecropia

It's just weird thinking that this is an animal.

It's especially weird thinking that it ends up looking like this...

Grocery bag art: part 2

McGill, I need you!

Birthday Recap--

Okay! So.. my birthday was June 29th and even though a lot of my friendsies/brother were on choir tour it was still an awesome day with my parents, sister, and best friend Lauren :)

Started the morning off with some yummy breakfast.

Then me, my mom, and sister headed to VA beach for the day.

I got back from the beach around 5:30, went to take care of little Franklin, then headed home to get ready for dinner. Lauren came over and we headed to Champps with my family. Delicioso.

(this is after my mom told me that I had Asian eyes--obviously proving her wrong).

oh la la. 

tiramisu!

"Nothing in the world could keep the Count from his beloved bride......."